Recently, I’ve had a few VERY low hypos. I had a 2.1 just as I was leaving somewhere on my own. I was so confused that I didn’t know how much Lucozade I had drunk, or needed to drink, so my first instinct was to call my mum.
A few days later I was just leaving a shop with my dad and I was 1.7. This time my dad was there to help me, but when I reached 3.2 and started heading back down again for some reason, my first instinct was to call my mum.
About a year ago I was in town, again alone (I had only been out about 15 minutes), when I decided to test and I was under 1.1. I didn’t even have Lucozade, I called my mum instead.
Each time I have a bad low without my mum there – my first instinct is to talk to her. Because I know that she will either come and get me or at least sort it out and somehow in my hypo state I realise that. Probably because she’s never failed to help me before! I guess it’s quite a good thing that I call my mum though, it’s a lot better than my first instinct being to go and do 10 star jumps or something stupid as you would expect a hypo person to think of doing.
Because I’ve nearly finished my GCSEs, I’ve had to think of the future quite a lot recently and in particular -what I’m going to do Diabetes-wise when I don’t live with my mum. I’ve realised that I definitely need people around me to help me when things get too bad or too much with my diabetes, so I’m going to have to find that person who I trust my life with (and that’s difficult to do!) but I’m worried that I won’t. I simply can’t do diabetes by myself and I never EVER want to live alone. Whether I find a boyfriend, best friend or group of friends to room with, I would rather live at home with my mum and travel 2 hours to university than live alone!
On the more positive side, I keep on thinking about the fact if I end up in medical school, all my peers will more than likely be very interested in all my medical problems and hopefully (fingers crossed!) willing to help me if I need it. They would also, hopefully, grasp the seriousness of it all and not panic in an emergency. Hopefully.
I don’t really know what my future holds, but I’m going to make sure I don’t do whatever it is alone.